Tuesday, August 31, 2010

Through the cloak of darkness
I resurrect my feelings
submerging my self in you
you're scent
you're heat
you're soul

A relapse of another kind
to take control again
my mind races with you
my dreams taunt me with you

Intoxicated i stumble softly
vision lacking stability
i look for you
call to you
but no where you are found.

why have you gone?
why do you torture?
can i be free of you?
and yet the question remains
do I want to be free of you?

aloud i whisper gently
to the clouds and to the rain
why am I numb with out you?

the storm of confusion sets in
reality so far from me
so for now i sleep away the pain
that lacks you in my
life




Wednesday, August 18, 2010

a few randoms

my heavy eye lids drop in place
extinguishing any light i see
i battle against it for just a moment
not out of fear but curiosity
what has this darkness to offer?
what dreams or nightmares
lie in wait?
the tainted lips speak only lies
as exhaustion comes for the pounce
and the nightmares hit hard


Veins burning
I stand free
of pain
of fear
of shame

the total loss
now rebuilt
determination
now blazing
and tracing my veins

I walk a new path
with a new me
a new out look
and a new
Dream.


addicted

You say one thing while meaning another
the lies infecting my mind
depicting and untangling your web
i'm stuck trapped in your words
words with no meaning, cage me
enslave me
like a drug i want more
more false hope and endless torture
withdrawal is a bitch
reality is just out of my grasp
your infectious words cling tight to my core
fighting my free will
twisting it apart
dismantling my soul
you stand there watching me burn
while you lead me in for more
I beg you to stop
have mercy
pulling away resisting
i'm yanked back by my hair
No denying you
you own me
tainting my blood
you keep me addicted